This is my question?

Why is it that everytime I do the right thing,it does not give me a good payback and its trying to show that im the idiot?What does heaven look like?Or Underworld?Has anybody been there already?I am looking for a place where everybody is kind and does not mess with me and without my familly.I am sick and tired in this Earth.I want to be in a place that nobody is against me and hate me.